is realizing that you can’t save anyone.
They are on a ship hit by an iceberg
and you are on the coast.
All you can do is love them from afar
and then you’re forced to watch them either
sink or float.
That is why I bury my hurt
so deep so that
you will never find it.
You already are weighed down by so much,
and the odds are already stacked
up against you.
I don’t need to be the heavy in your life."
I’ve never felt this overwhelmed in my life. I’m at the point where I’ve gotten sick - is it even worth it? Am I just over thinking about it? Is this the point in life that shows how much I’m capable of? Am I just doubting myself because everyone else thinks I’m insane with this debt sentence I’m about to get myself into and not thinking about my ambition, dreams and goals? I know in the end it’s my choice. I guess I haven’t sorted it out yet.